The hardest thing about writing a dissertation is trying to do to much. I had a rough last week with overwhelming stress from writing and feelings of neglecting work and running. This weekend I spent mostly in my house on my couch physically and mentally exhausted. Downloading songs to run to from the 90s and early 2000s made me think back to times when I was less in my head and more in the moment. It's amazing how powerful music is on the psyche and after an intensive downloading session Sunday afternoon I began to understand that I need to re-evaluate my work plan
So what is this work plan you ask? Well, basically I don't need to do so much. Period. It really is simple in theory but harder in execution. I am not writing a masterpiece and I don't want to. I actually can't stand the damn dissertation and once I am done want to go in a different research trajectory anyway. This is not unusual - after you spend anywhere from 5-10 years on a research project it essentially gets old and you move onto other interests. I prefer to look more at economic inequality and the effects government policies have on disadvantaged communities if I were to take a research focused job. I also prefer to write books - still figuring out what kind but I have an idea and a basic outline on paper for when I am finished with the dissertation. Hell I wouldn't even mind writing speeches of press releases as long as I was able to use my brain and writing skills for some type of betterment of society.