So I thought to myself - "Self, why not try to do more things Brits do" - so Mike and I enrolled in a "tester" rock climbing course at a local center.
Ok, first attempt - its expected. Mike goes and of course he climbs up the wall in like 10 seconds and gets to try harder and harder climbs during the hour. Me on the other hand, I was his support. I tightened the rope as he went up and released it on the way down. After three futile attempts by me my instructor says, well let's try you on the easiest route. I'm like ok, so we go and of course its the kids wall. Now, I know that I need to swallow my pride and realize that I am new to this and heights aren't my thing but your ego gets a bit damaged when, as a 28 year old woman, I can't make it past 2 feet off the ground and next to me are four 7 year olds climbing a difficult route...wait for it...BLINDFOLDED! YES, a kids team were practicing next me and they were racing each other blindfolded as dads stood around cheering them on. I, on the other hand, couldn't even go up the damn safety ladder next to the wall and just belay down. At the end of the hour I was tired, my hands were sore, and my ego was slightly (oh hell, really), bruised.
On the way home Mike asked me what I thought was holding me back. I thought about it and realized that I really don't like the idea of my feet leaving the ground. This has also been my problem in learning to swim. I am ok up to 6 feet of water, but when I can't touch the bottom I freak out and sink - very counterproductive. Same with the climbing business, I trust the rope and the pulley system, but once I can't put my feet on the ground, and all I can do is go up and rely on someone to bring me down to the ground, then the sensors in my brain and body shut down. My legs start twitching and I looked like I'm cracked out on meth. But, I don't want to give up. Climbing would help me in my mountaineering so I think I may try hypnotherapy. I have been talking about it for years, but what else can I do? My mind is tweaked out and goes into overload once the ground and feet part ways. So I'll wait a month and try again and next time I won't be next to blindfolded 7 year olds. I mean DAMN!