Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Pain in the Ass...literally
But really, I am ok with my "abnormal" female frame. However, what I am finding out is that this height comes at a price - a bad back that likes to act up during exercise and now sciatica that leaves me with a pain in me right ass that just won't go away. Now I am not saying that because I am tall I am destined for back pain. On the contrary the bad back comes from playing a sport in which my height was valued - one of the few places in which I was comfortable and proud of my stature. But the constant jumping and explosive moves required on the volleyball court were to much for my frame (that was bigger than is should have been for college sports) and eventually led to a compressed disk and pinch nerve down my right leg. It was left untreated for 2 years due to incompetent doctors who insisted that "a female of my frame tends to get a lack of feeling in their lower extremities due to muscular over development" or as I now interpret it "you are only a female so you can't really have a serious college sports injury and let's be real you are too freakin tall and we all know tall females are just destined to be in pain so deal with it and that will be $500. Hope your insurance pays for it." Essentially, the preconceived notions and stereotypes about tall women led to a misdiagnosis and uninterested in a serious injury that, if I were a man in college sports, who have been taken more seriously. Challenge me if you like, but I have seen it time and again.
Yet, my body is not as strong as it needs to be to handle this level of pounding. Hence the sciatica - a consequence of my body adapting again to my weakened lower back by tucking my pelvis bones under to handle more load. That worked for while, but when I decided to stop being lazy and start working out again the running and lifting proved to much to quick and my body let me know with a sharp pain in my ass and knee that left me frozen in agony just before the New Year in a training session.
pilates as my rehab prescription (which I start tomorrow and should be interesting) I am guaranteed to stand even taller as my core becomes a stronger part of this body. I will have to come face-to-face and reconcile with my height - which in itself may be a big pain in the ass. Bring it on.